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I've been working on stuff for a while and I'm tired.
My friends are too busy to talk and I'm filling the silence with work.
It'll be okay but still it's stressful.
School is weird and it's jn the way of a lot but I still like it I guess.
I want to continue my extra studies and languages but I can't find the time just yet. I've been focusing on my store lately just figuring that out.
I'm going to go to the dentist on the 11th and if I have to get dental work I'll be loopy and I'll reveal all my secrets. I'm praying to my gods that won't happen. I guess I have to beg for twilight anesthesia.
I feel like I need a partner but I don't want one and no one wants me so that's alright. I still want someone to love me tho. I want to see my friends but they live all over the world. My cats get into trouble and I can't be there to save them all the time. My cat's getting fixed tomorrow and I have no idea when or what the day would look like. I need routine so I can relax and I haven't been able to do anything from that routine lately. I have to make a new routine and I don't like it, but it's okay. I don't like what I do during the day before I go to work and honestly work is happier than at the house. And I work in retail as a cashier during holiday season.
I want to watch some movies and take a bath. Did you know that people who take long warm baths get warmth from the baths instead of human contact because they're lonely? And this is why I don't want to take a long warm bath. I want to go back in time but I can't, and I want to be in the future but I have to make it.
You got any advice for this feeling? Is this a quarter life crisis?