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Free Empire of the Low Isles wrote:

Okay, so I just opened it today.

And it was because I needed to look at my signature. I couldn't find a quote from Jefferson on the internet that I knew I had there, so it was my only reliable source for the exact wording of the quote.

Back to never opening the forum section ever again.

Just went back to look at my signature, forgot those were even a thing.

well

thats a 3 year relationship down the toilet

fun times on a tuesday

Syrixces wrote:

well

thats a 3 year relationship down the toilet

fun times on a tuesday

That's rather awful. Do you wanna talk about it? *Tight hugs.*

yeah, its just been a rough month

the reasoning was just so contrived too

i dont get it dudes. i just dont get it. but thanks for reaching out y'all

Luminesa wrote:

Take some time to yourself, it’s gonna be okay. Be gentle with yourself.

I'm trying. In the last month I've gone no contact with my family, lost my dog, and now this. I just feel very lost. After 3 years of waking up next to someone, it just feels so lonely to wake up in an empty bed.

I just feel very lost. Universe, you can stop testing me now! Any more and I'm gonna turn into dr doom jeez

at least ive still got my humor i guess

Bycrest wrote:

Hey, you can always talk to us if you're feeling down. No one should have to go through any of that alone.

I really appreciate the support. I just been having a rough month. At least I know if anything this break up isn't my fault. Ever HER friends are saying shes in the wrong here.

Luminesa wrote:

It do be like that. People make dumb mistakes leaving a happy place out of insecurity, and you know you can’t fix that. You’re stronger than you think, and more loving, and for that reason you deserve to give yourself more rest.

I'm giving it one last attempt to fix it tomorrow. After that I wash my hands of it. I can't unmake someone elses choices.

Still hurts tho

Luminesa wrote:

If she left and she’s not intending to look back, I would let her go. You deserve someone who isn’t going to do that to you.

That's the plan. The long and the short of it is I have a very toxic family. She's been pressuring me to cut them out of my life for a long time now, and broke up with me over my emotional hang ups when it comes to doing that. TBH she's right in her emotions, and I've since seen that, and fully cut them off. They were physically, verbally, and emotionally abusive to me throughout my childhood, and unfortunately I got stockholmed for too long.

The problem is how she did it, suddenly, out of the blue, blowing up at me, and completely blindsideing me. Telling my she loves me and will be there for me 24 hours before she breaks up with me over the phone. She's since insisted that its final, and no matter what, we're done.

All I'm asking for is a chance to show I've moved on, that I'm no longer letting my past define who I am. One week to prove I'm capable of the change she thought I wasn't able to have in me, that I now know I do.

I guess my logic is: If three years of love and trust that I never broke means so little that it can't buy me a single chance to prove who I am and save this, then she's not the person I thought she was, and that coldness and lack of empathy is unforgiveable. I'm just asking for a fair chance is all. If 3 years of all the right things doesn't deserve that, then I've clearly waisted my time and I need to move on.

Bycrest wrote:

That's all you can really ask for. You can't make a person's choices for them and if she still doesn't want to get back together with you or just outright doesn't give you a chance, then it wasn't meant to be. I'm sorry you're going through all of this to begin with, but I know you'll make the right choices and come out stronger because of it.

I hope so. I'm just asking for a chance to show her who I know I can be is all.

Pray for the best, but prepare for the worst right?

Syrixces wrote:

Apparently three years of love and loyalty can't buy you a chance, even when the other person has done you much greater wrongs.

TLDR, don't tell me you love me and then abandon me without a fair chance to represent myself. Love is about giving those you love chances. Not kicking them when you're down

I'm gonna go get drunk

Yeah if she told you she would love you forever, walked out 24 hours later, and doesn’t even wanna talk, that’s a load of baloney. Please take care of yourself (and your liver). We love you Sy!

i just really miss her warmth

and her laugh